Note to Self:
Trust in this moment.
For those of you who know me personally, you've probably discovered that "trust" isn't exactly in my vocabulary. I have a really hard time trusting . . . in other people, in myself, in anything. It's just the way I am.
I'm almost done with my first semester of college and I've learned a lot more than I thought I would. Among the most important things I've learned, I've learned to simply trust in this moment. Right here. Right now. Trust in the moment you finish a test, even if you don't think you did well. Trust in the moment you say hi to someone new, even if they didn't say hi back. Trust in the moment you decide to stick it out at work, even if you're not sure why you haven't quit. Trust in the moment you register for next semester, even if you didn't get all of your first choice classes. Trust in the moment you let a guy sweep you off your feet, even if you're not sure where it's headed. Just trust in this moment.
And you know what? It's terrifying. Sometimes it feels as if the moment I decide to trust is the moment I let go of my control. But the truth is . . . it's going to be okay. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, even if you never find out what that reason is. If you put forth every effort you have . . . somehow everything will work out.
This is a confusing time in life (as if any time isn't lol). And now is when I've realized that I really don't know anything. At all. What a blow that is after our all-knowing teenage years! And not knowing what's coming scares me more than almost anything. I mean how can you prepare for something you know nothing about? By trusting.
Trust that, in this moment, you are headed in the right direction.
Trust that, in this moment, you have people who love you and want to help.
Trust that, in this moment, you have endless opportunities.
Trust that, in this moment, you can be happy.
This moment is all we have. The past is gone and the future isn't here yet. So trust in this moment. This small little blip in time. And while we're at it, in this moment . . . live. :)
